David Miller left the community at 19. Before baptism — no Meidung. Year one: everything for the first time. Electricity, TV, car. Year five: office, $45,000, apartment, alone. Year ten — journalist asked: 'Are you happy?' David: 'I have everything I didn't have. Missing one thing: evening tea with Mom when everyone's silent and everything's understood. I'm not unhappy. I'm out of place. Like a chair standing straight but at the wrong table.'